Aku dan lagu (part 3)

3.3.2009 6.23 p.m

Ungu - Cinta Dalam Hati

mungkin ini memang jalan takdirku
mengagumi tanpa di cintai
tak mengapa bagiku
asal kau pun bahagia
dengan hidupmu, dengan hidupmu

telah lama kupendam perasaan itu
menunggu hatimu menyambut diriku
tak mengapa bagiku cintaimu pun adalah bahagia untukku, bahagia untukku

ku ingin kau tahu diriku di sini menanti dirimu
meski ku tunggu hingga ujung waktuku
dan berharap rasa ini kan abadi untuk selamanya
dan izinkan aku memeluk dirimu kali ini saja
tuk ucapkan selamat tinggal untuk selamanya
dan biarkan rasa ini bahagia untuk sekejab saja

Nak dengar? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9w3SSIMIPBg


Day 4 of hiatus. Entah mengapa hari ni aku rasa sedikit jiwang. So, for this entry, aku akan tell a little bit about love. The four letter word yang pastinya dialami oleh setiap insane di muka bumi ini. Juga termasuk yours truly. Well, to tell you the truth, aku sebenarnya at least into 2 relationships yang agak serius. Namun, akhirnya tak menjadi juga. Skandal tu banyak juga, tapi dah nama pun skandal so main-main saja, tak serius. In my life, aku sebenarnya seorang yang will always love, but never will be loved just as much. Hence, the reason for choosing the song above. Sangat perfect untuk menggambarkan perasaan and situasi aku when it comes to love.

At least ada 3 perempuan yang aku jumpa yang aku benar2 terpikat or very attracted tu. For the first time, aku ingin share it to whoever who reads this. Well, the first one is someone that I know from secondary school. Actually aku dah kenal dia sejak darjah enam lagi (lama tu). Satu kelas dengan si dia masa zaman SPM. Bagi aku, dia sangat attractive. Has the attitude yang cukup menyenangkan. And she was the only girl at school yang mana apabila aku speak to, aku tak rasa janggal or kekok. Nampak macam compatible la. I had the opportunity to tell her my feelings, after the exams but I blew it. I had no guts to say it to her. Now, she is seeing someone else, and is planning to get married. Bila aku first dengar about that thing, I was a bit sad, but happy for her. I will still like her no matter what.

Well, the second girl was a summer camp’s dream. Aku masih ingat lagi masa part 2, aku dan beberapa class rep, assistant class rep serta Komed committee dipaksa ke summer camp anjuran taman perumahan coordinator Mass Comm. Mahu tak mahu kena pergi la. Then, there we were divided into groups and had to be fasilitator kepada kanak-kanak yang menyertai summer camp itu. This girl was actually in the same group. I don’t know, but there’s something about her in the eyes that truly attracts me. She was a junior at that time. After the camp, I never ever had the guts (again) to talk to her, sampai sekarang. Tapi, apabila terserempak dengan si dia in the campus, aku tahu that particular day will be the best day of the week, if not the entire semester. When I saw her, aku rasa uplifted and happy. Rasa macam ada purpose dalam life, you know. I last saw her during the opening weeks of this semester. Still tak terjumpa her lagi. But, I will wait that moment.

During this hiatus, aku tersedar yang aku sangat attracted dengan lagi seorang gadis ni. Aku tak boleh bagi information yang lebih because people that are close to me will obviously know who she really is. Let’s just say yang dia seorang Miss Independent, bak kata Ne-Yo. When it comes to work or assignment, bagi aku dia sangat authoritative, yet very nice. Bila dia tegur, mula-mula aku rasa agak upset, tapi lama-lama I know that I made mistakes and she wants to correct me. Dia macam seorang yang agak sombong at first glace, tapi apabila you know her closely, she is actually seorang yang sangat interesting. Not your typical kind of girl. Aku really like her because she is beautiful, yet she always play down on that thing. Meaning yang dia seorang yang agak humble juga la. She also makes my day a very good day, whenever I saw and talk to her. Aku tahu yang aku will never get a shot at her because aku tahu aku siapa. Not someone yang menepati her criteria of a perfect guy. Bagi aku, lebih baik aku admire sahaja dia. Tak salah kalu buat like that. Tapi kalau sampai tahap stalker tu lain cerita la. Itu agak sick and perverted. Aku masih lagi dapat control myself.

Being single for this long nampak macam show me yang aku seorang yang loser di mata orang. Tapi aku tak kisah. Maybe I am not supposed to have a really serious relationship at all, because I do not deserve it. There is still tomorrow though, and tomorrow is another day. Another day, another hope for me.

Ciao.

Notakecil:

-DUN Perak bersidang bawah pokok. Now I have seen it all. Politik di Malaysia, at least di Perak right now, is at its lowest point. Tak sabar aku nak tengok pilihanraya di sana. Kalau tak darah, at least berbaldi air liur yang akan tumpah di sana. It will be interesting, that’s for sure.

-Aku baru sahaja belek gambar2 induction this semester. Aku rasa sedikit cynical. Apa guna ada induction if two or three days later, kalau junior and senior selisih, tengok muka pun tak nak? Nampak sangat yang both ada ego setinggi Gunung Everest. Aku tak salahkan sesiapa, but that Is the cold hard truth. Interesting to see relationship between batches kalau Komed buat event besar lagi. There will be fireworks.

-Terasa sangat rindu dengan PS2 aku yang terdampar di rumah sewa di Melaka. Banyak games aku tak habiskan lagi. Tapi aku takut nak bawa benda tu pulang because my dad would be so mad if he founds out about it. I have to wait sampai hujung semester, then aku akan bawa balik my precious (bak kata Gollum).

Baru sahaja tahu yang hiatus aku will end soon. Sad and glad to know it. I will tell you my overall experience in the coming entries.

Ciao. (Again)