Aku dan Lagu (Part 6)

14.9.2009 6.53 p.m

Akhirnya, terdetik di hati nak menyambung this particular series di dalam blog ni. Bukannya apa, susah nak cari lagu yang betul-betul mendalam dan memikat hati aku. Also, lagila susah nak mencari lagu yang ada mening yang mendalam. Ditambah pula dengan jadual Degree yang membunuh, bak kata member aku, “Memang tak dapatla, jack.” Without further adieu, here it is.

Scorpions – Still Loving You

Time, it needs time
To win back your love again.
I will be there, I will be there.

Love, only love
Can bring back your love someday.
I will be there, I will be there.

Fight, babe, I'll fight
To win back your love again.
I will be there, I will be there.

Love, only love
Can break down the walls someday.
I will be there, I will be there.

If we'd go again
All the way from the start,
I would try to change
The things that killed our love.

Your pride has build a wall, so strong
That I can't get through.
Is there really no chance
To start once again?
I'm loving you.

Try, baby try
To trust in my love again.
I will be there, I will be there.

Love, your love
Just shouldn't be thrown away.
I will be there, I will be there.

If we'd go again
All the way from the start,
I would try to change
The things that killed our love.

Your pride has build a wall, so strong
That I can't get through.
Is there really no chance
To start once again?

If we'd go again
All the way from the start,
I would try to change
The things that killed our love.

Yes I've hurt your pride, and I know
What you've been through.
You should give me a chance
This can't be the end.

I'm still loving you.
I'm still loving you,
I need your love.
I'm still loving you.
Still loving you, baby...

Lagu ni adalah hasil nukilan band Rock dari Negara Germany. Namanya Scorpions. Antara nama lagenda dalam dunia rock kapak serta lagenda di pusat-pusat karaoke di seantero Malaysia. My first memories bila start mendengar lagu ni adalah when I was 5 or 6 years old. My dad membeli kaset (zaman tu CD adalah benda yang rare) koleksi Scorpions Ballad. Dipendekkan cerita, bila dalam kereta sahaja, lagu-lagu Scorpions menjadi makanan telinga aku. Apart from that, lagu-lagu ni menjadi antara first exposure aku kepada bahasa Inggeris. Bapa aku still reminded me of how aku selalu try nyanyi lagu-lagu Scorpions masa kecil dulu. Bersungguh-sungguh tiru style Klaus Meine menyanyi. Tapi macam dengar pelat bahasa Oran Asli, kata bapa aku. Tergelak aku di situ.

Anyways, minggu lepas aku terdedah balik dengan lagu-lagu macam ni, hasil ihsan member serumah aku yang ada koleksinya. Terus teringat nostalgia lalu, macam yang aku ceritakan di atas. Tapi, this particular song from this band yang membuatkan aku terlayan jiwang tahap tertinggi. Lagu ‘Still Loving You’ ni banyak menceritakan this guy yang still clinging on to his love towards his girl. Simple sahaja. Entah kenapa aku sangat melayan lagu ni. Mungkin sebab ada kena mengena dengan apa yang aku lalui sekarang ni.

Walaupun dah hampir 2 to 3 months aku bergelumang dalam arus degree ni, aku still tak nak memadam memori aku dengan girls of my past. Kalau nak tahu, baca entri aku yang terdahulu. Kenangan with them terlalu mendalam di sanubari ini. Walaupun with new surroundings, meeting new people and all, these memories still terlalu kuat dalam ingatan. Bersama si dia mengharungi onak duri SPM, terserempak dengan girl of summer camp, dan yang paling susah nak lupa, kenangan with Miss Independent. Memories that I will cherish while it last.

Bukannya aku tak nak cari yang lain. Calon tu ramai. Dari girl dalam RapidKL, girl yang duduk belajar di library, girl di café Menara, serta girl sefakulti. Semuanya attractive. Still, aku masih lagi with these memories. Only time will tell kalau aku mampu move forward. But at this point and time, Still Loving You.

Ciao.

Notakecil:

- Disebabkan kerja yang berlambak, suram sedikit Raya kali ni. Dugaan oh dugaan.

- Musim bola semakin rancak dan menyeronokkan. Always looking forward to weekend matches. Glory2 Man United!!

- Masih lagi gagal mendapatkan DVD Summerslam yang terbaru. Tunggu duit Raya datang baru beli.

- Sudah menukar target pembelian kasut. Nak beli produk tempatan pula. Apa barang support benda import?

- So thankful terhadap member group sekerja yang berdedikasi. Semoga kejayaan lalu masa degree dapat diteruskan with these people.

Empty=Kosong

4.9.2009 8.27 p.m

September. How things have gone so fast right now. Pejam celik, dah hampir dua bulan dah journey aku di degree. And I have been so busy, that I have got no time at all to write. First post since August yang kering (satu entri sahaja). Kalau ada masa pun otak buntu nak tulis. Finally, tika dan saat ini, my brain suddenly has something to say.

Kosong. I don't know why but the last two or three days, there has been something that is missing. Aku terasa yang diri ini terasa kosong sangat. Nak buat assignment pun tak senang. Padahal berlambak kerja yang perlu disiapkan. And not forgetting tests that are coming up. Entahlah, jiwa ni macam tak ada apa-apa. Empty.

Maybe sebab dah lama sangat aku tak ada someone that is special to me. Someone that, at the very least, memberi inspirasi dan motivation for me to do what I am doing right now. Last time out, masa diploma ada la juga one or two 'sumber inspirasi' aku (Those who know, paham2 je la). Mungkin sebab tu aku terasa malas nak buat kerja, malas nak pergi kelas, and malas nak ambik tahu pasal hal degree ni. Because there is nothing to look forward too.

Kalau masa diploma, selalu sahaja ada motivation untuk buat kerja and pergi kelas. Because I knew that I do not want to let that special someone down and dissapoint. Now, there is nothing, I mean nothing to inspire me. Kalau aku try nak motivate diri pun, harapan abah, arwah mak dan adik2 menjadi azimat. But for me, that is still not enough.

Wow, I am going to a downward spiral. Better find that source of inspiration fast. If not, aku pasti hanyut masa degree ni. Now, I am clinging on that memories that I had with those who are special to me. But memories do fade with time and I am afraid that I cannot cope with it.

Better stop now before I went into another emotional meltdown.

Ciao. E.I.D.

notakecil:

- Having financial woes right now. Mula rasa menyesal sebab berbelanja tak tentu hala di awal semester.

- Dah aim satu kasut yang sangat smart sebagai sasaran pembelian. And it is not something that you would guess.

- Semakin kerap online, semakin rasa addicted to online. Better kurangkan kalau nak berangan ke luar negara masa praktikal nanti.

- Hasil pengaruh rakan2, now I am addicted to K-Pop groups, especially WG dan SNSD. Sangat menyukai Yoo Bin dan Hyo Yeon.

- Officially, aku dah rasa muak dan tak akan ambil pot tentang dunia politik negara ni. Kalau dah eligible nak vote nanti, baik aku undi calon Bebas atau rosakkan undi.

- Mark my words. Salah satu dari Big Four BPL tidak akan mencapai empat tangga teratas liga musim ni. Man City, Aston Villa, Everton, dan Spurs akan memberi cabaran yang maha sengit this season.