Aku dan lagu (part 10)

10.19 a.m 12.11.2011

Adele - Someone like you

I heard
That you're settled down
That you
Found a girl
And your
Married now

I heard
That your dreams came true
I guess she gave you things
I didn't give to you

Oh friend
Why you so shy
Ain't like you to hold back
Or hide from the light

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away I couldn't fight it
I hoped you'd see my face and be reminded
That for me
It isn't over

Nevermind
I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best
For you too
Don't forget me
I beg
I'll remember you still
Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead
Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead
Yeah

You know how the time flies
Only yesterday
It was the time of our lives
We were born and bred
In a summer haze
Bound by the surprise
Of our glory days

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away I couldn't fight it
I hoped you'd see my face and be reminded
That for me
It isn't over

Nevermind
I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best
For you too
Don't forget me
I beg
I'll remember you still
Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead

Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes
And memories made
Who would have known
How bittersweet
This would taste

Nevermind
I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best
For you too
Don't forget me
I beg
I'll remember you still
Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead

Nevermind
I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best
For you too
Don't forget me
I beg
I'll remember you still
Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead

Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead

This is one amazing woman. Watch her here.

It has been one month. Satu bulan sudahpun berlalu since that fateful day. And I am healing, slowly but surely. Walaupun dalam tempoh sebulan ni I was in some state of mind yang mana theme songs adalah ini dan ini, but I went through it and have a different perspective now.

Hidup harus diteruskan, no matter what. Tak perlu lagi nak berfikir tentang that thing lagi. It was the best period of my life though, and akan dijadikan pengajaran untuk masa hadapan. walaupun begitu, this guilt feeling masih ada for making her graduation day a sour one. I had no intention to make it that way. Cuma aku rasa lebih baik aku ketepi and let her have her day. Let her bask in the glory yang dah tiga tahun dia usahakan dan akhirnya dapat dikecapi. And it happened in a vice versa way, which is resulting in a really guilty me. But that's just me I guess, really bad with women around me.

I wish her all the best though. Mungkin aku hanya salah satu perhentiannya in her quest to find herself. Satu pitstop dalam mencari pengalaman. I hope she achieves her dream and meet the right guy, because she absolutely deserved it. She will always be in the annals of my heart though, as someone who touched me deep inside. Semoga dia berjaya.

It is time to move forward. Alhamdulillah, I had a career change. Swapping dari memasak popcorn, menjaga stok barang ke membaca artikel, mendengar dan melihat berita. A new job di kaki bukit KL Tower, menjadi seorang media researcher. And by the looks of it I am going for a long haul for this one. Dah tiba masanya untuk merencana masa hadapan, walaupun tanpa seseorang yang istimewa di sisi. That's my fate I guess,to be alone sebab tiada pemegang tulang rusuknya di atas bumi ini. Or she already existed tapi diri ini tak nampak.

All in all, masih panjang lagi perjalanan ini sebenarnya, jika diizinkan Tuhan. I do have matlamat untuk dicapai. Aku berharap yang semua matlamat itu dapat dicapai sebelum diri ini menutup mata untuk selama-lamanya, menghadap Tuhan yang Maha Esa.

Notakecil:

- Gigih mengumpul duit so that I can live by myself in the near future. Tak mahu lagi membebankan keluarga. It is time for me to give back.

- Nak melanjutkan pelajaran dan mengambil Masters, but not now though. Nak menikmati hidup bekerja pula after years of studying. PJJ perhaps?

- Banyak perancangan but I need to do it one thing at a time. Patience is key.

- Having weekends back is the best thing yang dialami sekarang.