Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Aku dan Lagu (Part 9)

12.54 p.m 3.8.2011

The Strokes - Razorblade

Oh, the, Razor blade, that's what I call love
I bet you pick it up and mess around with it
If I put it down
It gets extremely complicated
Anything to forget everything


You got to take me out
At least once a week
Whether I'm in your arms
Or I'm at your feet
I know exactly what you're thinking
You won't say it now
But in your heart it's loud


Oh no, my feelings are more important than yours
Oh, drop dead, I don't care, I won't worry
There you go


Oh, the razor blade
Wish it would snap this rope
The world is in your hand
Or it's at your throat
At times it's not that complicated
Anything to forget everything


He would never talk
But he was not shy
She was a street-smart girl
But she could not lie
They were perfect for each other
Say it now
Cause in your heart it's loud


Oh no, my feelings are more important than yours
Oh, drop dead, I don't care, I won't worry


Ayh

Sweetheart
Your feelings are more important of course
Of course
Everyone you wanted
Everything that we would take from them
I don't wanna know, I don't wanna know
Tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me


no, don't, okay

their performance of this song = http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LHXlIcn33A4

The Strokes is definitely antara band 'rock n roll' kegemaran aku sepanjang zaman. They compliment each other in true perfection. Baik dari vokal, guitars, bass dan dram, it all seems perfectly aligned dalam setiap lagu mereka. That's why I put them among my favorites, alongside Slipknot and others. Kenapa aku memilih lagu ni?

Well, dah genap 100 hari aku bersama dengan kesayangan. And throughout those days it has been really special indeed for me. I felt that a part of me telah menjadi complete, dan membuatkan aku lebih bermotivasi untuk meneruskan penghidupan di dunia ni. She has to be the one for me. That's why aku berusaha gigih sekarang, so that I can have some sort of ikatan dengan kesayangan, and then moving on towards having a more serious ikatan dengannya. Mungkin lama lagi untuk itu, but at least aku ada some sort of foundation to build upon. And hopefully it will last for hundreds and hundreds of days more.

to her:

"thank you for all the surprises. thank you for accepting me as i am. thank you for being the best thing that happened to me this year. and thank you for completing that one piece of puzzle in this little heart of mine."

as the song says,

"He would never talk
But he was not shy
She was a street-smart girl
But she could not lie
They were perfect for each other
Say it now
Cause in your heart it's loud."

until then, Au Revoir.

Thursday, July 28, 2011

All about working life...

11.04 p.m 28.7.2011

It has been a long time, isn't it? Dah lama tangan ni tak menaip di keyboard 'Toshi' yakni laptop kepunyaan diri berkenaan entry in this particular blog. Have no fear, due to some stimulus (and perhaps sarcasm), diri ini akan sekali lagi cuba untuk aktif menulis (or menaip) di blog ini dan blog yang lagi satu tu. Tentang blog yang lagi satu tu, akan diberitahu kemudian.

2011 is really a year of transition for me. Dari bidang pembelajaran, terus ke bidang pekerjaan. The first four months diharungi dengan mengharungi practical training di RTM. It was probably the best four months that I ever had in terms of having fun in doing what I like the most, a broadcaster. Menjadi trainee AP untuk Hello on Two was really fun indeed, as I learn more tentang luar dan dalam bidang penyiaran and got a good understanding of how media works as a whole in Malaysia.

Selepas itu, after a brief break aku terjun semula ke bidang pekerjaan, but this time into a whole new different environment, field and work. Aku bekerja di bahagian Concessions wayang MBO di Viva Mall. Bermula hanya sebagai part timer, the workload is damn heavy and dengan hanya berpeluang bercuti satu hari dalam seminggu, one would want to quit the job altogether. Tapi aku bertahan, mengenangkan masa depan yang nak dicapai, among others. Plus, I am a workaholic after all.

Akhirnya, that perseverance pays off as now I am working full time here. Dan aku terasa committed untuk meneruskan karier aku di bidang wayang nie. Seems to be pretty interesting, tapi penuh onak dan ranjau berduri. At least sekarang aku ada platform untuk maju ke hadapan.

Comparing it with my first job is like night and day. The first job is like love at first sight. The second job is like someone that you fall in love slowly but surely as days go by. In the end, I choose the second one as it can last much more longer than the first one. Don't get me wrong, broadcasting masih lagi passion aku. And I would jump into any opportunity that presents itself in regards to broadcasting.

Cuma sekarang aku kena kumpul duit. Nak buat benda baik hujung tahun ni Insya Allah. Aku harap semuanya cukup, diterima oleh keluarga dan diberkati oleh Allah S.W.T. Doakanlah agar perancangan ini berjalan dengan lancar.

Until then, Au Revoire !

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Aku dan Lagu (Part 8)

Aku dan Lagu (Part 8)

11.18 p.m 23.6.2011

Akhirnya, telah dihidupkan kembali ruangan ini setelah sekian lamanya tidak dihidupkan. A resurrection after a very, very long time. Perhaps, it is my fault because I do not have a specific song to share that have a significant impact, in one way or another, in my life. Well, just recently I have found and heard this song and it pretty much sums up my feelings pada waktu sekarang. Perasaan yang sukar dibendung dan sangat mendalam di lubuk hati seorang yang bernama Fairus ini.

Lifehouse - Falling In

Every time I see your face
My heart takes off on a high speed chase
Now don't be scared, it's only love
Baby, that we're falling in

I can't wait till tomorrow
This feeling has swallowed me whole
And know that I've lost control
This heart that I've followed
Has left me so hollow
That was then, this is now, yeah you have changed everything

Every time I see your face
My heart takes off on a high speed chase
Now don't be scared, it's only love
That we're falling in
I would never do you wrong
Or let you down or lead you on
Don't look down, it's only love
Baby, that we're falling in

I'm standing in your driveway
It's midnight and I'm sideways
To find out if you feel the same
Won't be easy, have my doubts too
But it's over, without you I'm just lost, incomplete
Yeah you feel like home, home to me

Every time I see your face
My heart takes off on a high speed chase
Now don't be scared, it's only love
That we're falling in
I would never do you wrong
Or let you down or lead you on
Don't look down, it's only love
Baby, that we're falling in

All those nights I stayed awake
Thinking of all the ways to make you mine
All of those smiles will never fade
Never run out of ways to blow my mind

Every time I see your face
My heart takes off on a high speed chase
Now don't be scared, it's only love
That we're falling in
I would never do you wrong
Or let you down or lead you on
Don't look down, it's only love
Baby, that we're falling in
Don't be scared, it's only love
Baby, that we're falling in


nak dengar lagunya: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bzr2tgXPsVM

the best live version of this song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SH1s8IdFGio&feature=related

I actually first heard this song through a random link posted by a random friend at Facebook. A catchy tune, yet ia ada lirik yang sangat mendalam. Kebetulan pula, at that time aku mula mempunyai perasaan terhadap si dia (if you read my other entries, you will get the idea of the person that I am talking about). Bila teringat dia, terngiang-ngiang lagu ni berkumandang, like a background music or something. And now, after we decided that we will move forward as an item, aku consider lagu ini as my official song of her, just like 'Miss Independent' dan 'One in A Million'. And aku berharap inilah lagu terakhir yang akan aku associate with the girls in my life. No more after this. Cukup-cukuplah. Teringin juga nak menjadikan lagu ni sebagai lagu tema untuk majlis-majlis nanti. Majlis-majlis apa? Just wait and see.

Au revoire for now peeps!

Notakecil:

- Akan cuba kembali aktif untuk menulis secara perlahan-lahan. Kenalah keep up dengan si dia yang aktif menulis juga.

- Aku telahpun memasuki alam pekerjaan di bidang filem. Bukannya sebagai pelakon atau pengarah, but just a concession cashier at MBO. Kerja part-time untuk mengisi masa lapang dan untuk mengisi dana 'khas'.

- Teringin melihat kesayangannya to have a long hair. That's just me but I am fine with her appearance no matter what.

- Ada apa dengan 9 Julai? It will come down to whether there will be a mass protest or a public embarassment. That's all.

- I have a second blog, but it is still underwraps. Patience, people! You will know soon enough.

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

About her again... as my future... :)

9.56 a.m. 14.6.2011

Well, here I am again with another entry in this little blog of mine. Termasuk hari ni sudah genap 43 hari diri ini berstatus penganggur. Bukannya tiada effort to change this status, but maybe rezeki tak datang lagi. I just have to usaha and tawakal. Insya Allah, adalah rezeki untuk bekerja nanti. Perhaps, I have to wait until the final result to come out (which is by the way will be out this Friday, damn!) and refine my flaws first, before I am ready for the real world out there. Now, I am acting as the Mr. Mama in my house, which means that aku perlu melaksanakan tugasan harian di rumah seperti membasuh baju dan sebgainya. That is not a bad thing, as I improved myself day by day doing these chores. Persiapan masa hadapan mungkin? Aku hanya mampu tersenyum at that thought. Speaking of future, I just want to say Alhamdulillah. Finally, I have found that future Mrs. Fairus.

Remember the girl that I mentioned in the previous entry? Well, it turned out for the better as she actually has the same feeling that I have towards her. All it takes is one date and I knew that this is the girl that I have been searching for all my life. The other half of me, the partner in life and the mate of this little soul here. Yes, aku akui there have been a little bit doubt in this heart regarding her, but after that date, I just knew that this is THE girl for me. It may seems rushed but I never had this kind of feeling that is so much stronger than the previous girls in my life (the high-school crush, girl at summer camp, miss independent and miss one-in-a-million).

There are many reasons why I absolutely love about her. She has two sides, one that is very strong and independent, and another one that is very pure, sincere and lovable. And I can see her as my other half in the future, the big sister kepada adik-adikku, menantu abahku and a great addition to the Muntik Team. Both of us have a plan towards that and I am hoping that Insya Allah, semuanya berjalan lancar mengikut rancangan and me and her can achieve that happy ending. So, I better start picking up on my side, get a job, improving myself as a person and to be better that what I was yesterday. Nak jaga anak dara orang la katakan.

By the way, when I think of her, I have two songs in my mind, Falling In by Lifehouse and LOVE Girl by CN Blue.

Until next time, au revoire !

Notakecil (dah lama dah tak buat ni):

- Musim bola dah habis. But that doesn't mean that the off-season is boring. Transfer news and international competition (Gold Cup and Copa America) will satisfy my appetite for football.

- Current WWE programming is in its lowest of lows. Only several things that excites. Through Internet, I have at least three sites where I surf to that offers me some sort of retribution to this passion of mine.

- Sekarang kembali mendalami dunia fotografi yang dah lama ditinggalkan. But I need new camera lens. :/

- I wanna have a playlist of songs about her. Baru ada dua lagu.

- Malaysian politics are down to choosing a bisexual leader and a queen-controlled leader. That's why I don't really pay attention to it.

- Game emulators (Genesis, GBA, N64) made my day. Teringat kenangan zaman dulu.

- To those who read this on Facebook, this is actually from my Eyeless blog (tiadamata.blogspot.com). Feel free to check it out !

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

(Gustimania) Looking Back and Looking Forward: WWF No Way Out 2001

10.31 a.m 18.5.2011

We are back again to another installment of Gustimania. This is a new thing that I'm trying to do, which is to look back at the best of the best in past WWF/WWE PPVs and analyze what was so good about these PPVs compared to today's WWE PPVs. The first item is to analyze the whole PPV from top to the bottom. Then, I will give an overall view of the PPV and finally, I will take the positives from the PPV and discuss it in parallel with the current WWE PPVs. These past PPVs are actually of my collections of the past 11 years. That is a huge collection indeed. Without further adieu, let's start with the last PPV event of the then-WWF before the epic Wrestlemania 17: WWF No Way Out 2001. It was probably my first actual PPV that I bought, although on delay through VCD back then. Let's start with the actual card, shall we? (Note that the numbers are the duration of the whole match)

a) The Big Show defeated Raven (c) Singles match for the WWF Hardcore Championship (04:20)

This was a really fun Hardcore match during the time whereby everyone is gunning for the Hardcore Title, especially the former champions. What was supposed to be a one-on-one contest between the Big Show and Raven turned into an all-out brawl involving the lights of Hardcore Holly, Steve Blackman, Crash Holly and Billy Gunn. In the end though, the Big Show won, heading to Wrestlemania as the Hardcore Champion.

Match Rating: C+

A fun match with lots of Hardcore action. The interference was a surprising factor indeed. A nice opening to warm things up a bit as more action will be happening throughout the night.

b) Chris Jericho (c) defeated Chris Benoit, Eddie Guerrero, and X-Pac Fatal Four-Way match for the WWF Intercontinental Championship (12:17)

This is my favorite Fatal Four Way match of all time. It featured three future WWE/World Heavyweight Champions in Jericho, Benoit, and Guerrero. Then, it also involves X-Pac, a much underrated worker at that time. The match was a result of the 'interest of fairness' policy made by Mr. McMahon, as all three challengers had some sort of beef going on with the Intercontinental Champion. It resulted in an absolute blast of a match from start to finish. Everyone was very solid from start to finish and not one of them stood out, which was a good thing in my book. This is what you get if you let your best workers do what they do best, just wrestle their @$$ off. After a grueling contest, Jericho somehow managed to retain the Intercontinental Title. It also planted the seed for the breaking up of the Radicalz faction (Benoit and Guerrero).

Match Rating: A-

It started of with your basic one match inside the ring and one match outside the ring. But then, it turned into a fantastic contest that showed how much these guys wanted to win the Intercontinental Title. Near fall after near fall, submission after submission, it was nicely paced and exciting as well. In my opinion, this match should be the blueprint for a solid fatal four-way match in the future.

c) Stephanie McMahon-Helmsley defeated Trish Stratus Singles match (08:29)

This was the match to determine who the most dominant female in WWF is at that time, between the daughter of the boss, Stephanie and the mistress of the boss, Trish Stratus. For a match between two women who never actually wrestled before, it was very surprising. These two had a very intense cat-fight with some really good wrestling moves along the way. The crowd was very into it, which helped the match as well. In the end though, William Regal, the WWF Comissioner at that time, interfered and handed the win to Stephanie.

Match Rating: B-

As I said before, it was a surprisingly good match between these two. They showed in that match how much they hate each other and how much they want to be the dominant female at that point of time. A pretty good women's match in the end though, which was the appetizer for the following match.

d) Triple H defeated Steve Austin Three Stages of Hell match (39:27)

This was a match that culminated a feud that was more than one year in the making. It was the true focal point of this entire PPV. It was really a very simple feud actually. Triple H crippled Stone Cold via a planned hit-and-run with a car, Austin vows for revenge, Triple H retaliated, add in the WWF Championship factor into the mix as well, and you got yourself a damn good feud. This was a Three Stage of Hell match, which was a fancy name for 2 out of 3 falls match. The first fall was straight wrestling, the second fall was a street fight and the third fall was a Steel Cage match. Austin won the first fall. In the end though, Triple H won the next two falls, thus became the winner in this grueling match.

Match Rating: A

This match showed you how to end such long, intense and personal feud between two wrestlers. It featured two of the best ever in this business and they just went all out in this match, which was basically three matches combined into one. The first match was a solid wrestling match, albeit it was more of a brawl between the Game and Austin. The second match was a brutal Street Fight with all types of weapons involved. The third match was a Steel Cage match that showed which one had the will to win the contest. If there are any gimmick matches that worth to end a feud, these are the ones to look at.

e) Steven Richards defeated Jerry Lawler Singles match (05:32)

During these times, Right To Censor was the most hated faction in the WWF. They were against any profanity and whatsoever in the WWF. Jerry Lawler or the King stood up against these guys and challenged them to a match at No Way Out with the stipulation that if the King wins, WWF Diva the Kat (his real life spouse at that time) will be allowed to strip naked, but if the King lost, the Kat is forced to join RTC. After a short match with a lot of interference on behalf of the leader of RTC, Stevie Richards, the King lost. This paved his way to quit the WWF in the coming weeks.

Match rating: C-

It was just a filler match to calm things down after a stellar match that happened before it, which was a good thing since there was still one more main event left in this PPV. It was just a match to solidify the status of RTC as a midcard heel stable at that point of time.

f) The Dudley Boyz (Bubba Ray and D-Von) (c) defeated Edge and Christian and The Brothers of Destruction (Kane and The Undertaker) Tables match for the WWF Tag Team Championship (12:04)

This was a solid tornado style tag team table match between three great tag teams. There were lots of brawling between these three teams with some near spots involving the tables. It was during the golden years of tag team wrestling in the WWF so you are in for a treat. It was a pleasant sight indeed watching the Brothers of Destruction back together and kicking @$$. In the end though, due to interference by Haku and Rikishi, the Dudley Boyz managed to retain the title, heading to Wrestlemania as the Tag Team Champions.

Match Rating: B-

Again, this was a match served to warm up the audience back for the main event. It was brawl from start to finish. You know you are going to get that kind of match if you have teams like Kane and Undertaker, and also the Dudley Boyz. It showcased how good the tag-teams were back then.

g) The Rock defeated Kurt Angle (c) Singles match for the WWF Championship (16:53)

It was pretty much straightforward. The Rock wants to headline Wrestlemania again. Standing in his way was Kurt Angle, the fastest rising superstar in the WWF, and also the WWF Champion. This resulted in one of the one-on-one matches that I had ever seen. This was also one of the first matches whereby Kurt Angle utilized his Ankle Lock hold. Both of these guys worked their @$$ off throughout the match, even though there was an interference by the Big Show midway through the match. But it served as a breather so that a great ending can be done by both The Rock and Kurt Angle. After not one, but two Rock Bottoms, Kurt Angle was finally defeated and The Rock became the WWF Champion, on course for a major epic match with Stone Cold at Wrestlemania 17.

Match Rating: A

What a match that these two had. It was very underrated due to the Triple H - Stone Cold match that happened earlier on. The Rock continued to show why he was main eventer not thorugh his promo, but through his in ring work as well. Kurt Angle also showed why he deserved to be the guy that was pushed so hard and fast back then because he was that damn good (no pun intended) in the ring. The pace of the match was good and the psychology of the match was good as well, in particular the desire of the Rock to win the WWF Title back and the desperation of Kurt Angle to hold on to the WWF Title.

Overall View

This was a solid PPV from start to finish. The card was also very well structured because of the up and down flow of it. All of the matches were pretty much solid with two main events that met and even exceeded the expectation of many. The undercard matches were also good, not spectacular but they were PPV quality matches. The show was a one of the crucial stops on the Road to Wrestlemania 17 and it served its purpose as many feuds ended and many feuds also began on this PPV. A great PPV and I was glad that I got the opportunity to watch it on PPV and also to have it as one of my precious WWF/WWE PPV collections.

Overall Rating: A-

What can be learned from this PPV that can be used in Today's WWE PPVs

There were many aspects from this particular PPV had that the current WWE PPVs can learn from. One of it is in terms of feuds. A lot of the feuds in this PPV was a result of consistent storylines that ranged from more than a year (Triple H - Austin) to mere weeks (Rock - Angle). The result of such consistency is a match at PPV that meant something that was very significant. Nowadays, PPV matches lacked that meaningfulness as we can expect a rematch of sort down the line at the next PPV. PPV matches are meant to end a feud or even spark a new feud, with the television shows such as Raw and Smackdown to develop those feuds into a compelling storyline that makes the fans care about it. This basic formula is something that the WWE lacks due to inconsistent storyline and weird booking decisions.

That is why outside the big 4 PPvs (Royal Rumble, Wrestlemania, Summerslam and Survivor Series), WWE PPVs looked to be just a filler, lacking in importance. Results are very predictable due to the logic of the feud. To go forward, there is a need to make these PPvs feel important again, whereby all matches from top to bottom has an impact towards the storylines that happens week in and week out on Raw and Smackdown. That is something that this particular fan wants, no less and no more.

Au Revoir.

Monday, May 9, 2011

Something about her..

10.24 a.m 9.5.2011

Alhamdulillah, after a torrid work hangover of a week, diri ini kembali menjadi waras semula and I am back to being myself again. A pursuer of dreams and a wannabee somebody. Dengan tamatnya degree, maka bermulalah journey aku to the unknown. Welcome to the harsh and cold real world, Fairus! Anyways, entry kali ni is a dedication towards a girl that I have known recently and can be consdered as a conqueror of this little heart of mine (damn, he is falling in again!). A girl that at first, aku tak sangka akan kenal, malahan rapat. But then again, that four letter word, FATE is again at play. And now, this guy is into her. Entri terdahulu, I have said a few words about her. Thankfully, the thing that she said was a total misunderstanding on my part. Dan sekarang, at least aku ada peluang to prove to her that I can be her man (damn I love this 'Chase' portion of relationship).

That four month period telah banyak membuka mataku terhadap si dia. Such a strong-willed girl, yet deep inside lies a very feminine and fragile heart. Walaupun begitu, I still do not know her fully yet. But, day after day, the pieces to her puzzles are starting to unravel, one by one. And learning something new about her day after day is something that I cherish. And vice versa, she learns a lot about me as well. I've never been as open as this terhadap seorang perempuan. Tetapi itu penting sebenarnya, as a boy needs to know about his girl, and a girl needs to know about his boy. Then, barulah persefahaman dapat dibina. It is more interesting this way as it feels like an adventure to the unknown. You never know what you're gonna get. It is really exciting indeed.

Hopefully, by the end of it all, I can ultimately be hers. Hopefully she does have the same feeling as I have towards her. Ingin sekali aku mahu menjadi 'kesayangan' si dia itu, dan juga the first to be introduced to her mother. Ah, you are thinking ahead of yourself again, Fairus. Get your head focused !

One step at a time, slow and steady.

I just don't want to be that damn silly guy again.

Au Revoir, for now.

Thursday, May 5, 2011

Best Buddy material...

6.20 a.m 5.5.2011

Finally satu entry yang true untuk tahun 2011. Keadaan semasa yang sedikit reda akhirnya membantu for me to write another piece of my mind. Practical training was hard and fun, but that will be written for another day. This time, ianya adalah satu luahan perasaan yg mendalam after a very tough night that I have endured.

*rant begins*

Once again, diri ini telah menjadi subject untuk menjadi hanya best buddy a.k.a good friend a.k.a best friend kepada opposite sex and tidak mampu menjadi lebih daripada itu. Maybe it is just me who is not good enough to be more than a friend. Lately, I've been the subject for them to talk about problems with their men. That is pretty pathetic jika dikenangkan yang aku hanya menjadi tempat mengadu dan merujuk tentang permasalahan lelaki. And aku, as a typical me, just listen and try to give an honest opinion yang mungkin mampu merungkai permasalahan tu, walaupun I haven't been in a serious relationship for the longest of time. Again, typical me of helping people out. In the end, diri ni juga yang akan terasa sakitnya sebab tak mampu untuk menjadi seorang lover kepada perempuan.

For the past six months I've been let down by women twice, due to the fact that they accept me as a best buddy a.k.a good friend a.k.a best friend only, and tidak lebih daripada itu. That pretty much sucks. Especially the second one after all the hope in the world that I have towards her actually becoming that special girl of mine. And now she is the only one in this particular person's mind and heart. Perhaps pekara ini tak boleh nak rush sangat. One step at a time. Perhaps juga I have to be on 'chasing' mode again. Start from the beginning again. Tetapi, mungkin pengakhirannya akan sama sahaja. Pengakhiran yang sangat tidak digemari ketika ini.

Perhaps the Foreveralone club will have its newest member: me.

*rant ends*

Lega sedikit selepas sesi luahan tadi. Now I am feeling a lot better. Who says that blogging is not good for your mental health. It helps tremendously.

Au revoir, mon ami.

Notakecil:

- To-do list to get her: Play kites, watch sunset, go up Broga Hill, watch the new Transformer movie. Gonna get this done to win her heart. There will be an entry especially dedicated to her. :)

- After Friday, yours truly akan secara rasminya bertukar status dari seorang pelajar kepada seorang penganggur.

- The uncertain future is certainly getting on my nerves.

- Hating the state of WWE landscape right now. It degrades a lot after so much hope last year.