Finally

2.50 p.m 16.4.2012

Wah, dah berhabuk dah blog ni. Kesian ditinggalkan oleh tuannya yang tersangat busy with a lot of things. But never fear, this time I will try to write as much as possible. And there are reasons to that. Sebab pertama, to polish up my writing skills yang dah makin tumpul. It is actually a necessity to my work as a Media Researcher (tailor-made job for me!). Selain tu, sebab kedua adalah untuk meluahkan banyak idea, pendapat, rants, isi hati yg dah lama terbuku inside my mind and also in my heart. Various events happening around me and happened towards me. So, ianya adalah satu benda yg natural to try and react to those things. And through this medium, I can at least meluahkan apa yang sepatutnya diluahkan. Dari saat ini juga, i will try to concentrate on using just one language per post, so this is the last one of this crazy dwibahasa type of blog post. Perlu dilakukan untuk improve my writing skills in English and also berpegang kepada bahasa Melayu yang memang melambangkan jati diri ini.

Now we that we get that out of the way, let's move on to some other things. Notakecil style, perhaps ?

- Working as a Media Researcher is actually fun. Really thankful to Allah sebab dapat kerja ni just after I graduated and during the time when I was going through a break-up. Memfokuskan segala tenaga ke arah kerja truly helps. Walaupun sebenarnya aku belajar broadcasting, tak semestinya aku tak enjoy doing things that I am doing now. Bezanya memang macam langit dengan bumi. Then again, this job suits me well and aku berharap dapat meneruskan langkah dalam bidang ni. Media Analyst perhaps? Only time (and effort) can tell.

- Benarlah kata orang tu, patah tumbuh hilang berganti. Now, there is someone special that is in my heart. And I am very thankful that she came into my life. I hope she will stay for a long time, perhaps sampai ke akhirnya. Jodoh kan? Harap-harapnya la. Dia memang seorang yg special. Memang dia 'si pelik' saya. I really hope that this will be the one for me, I really hope.

- The love for wrestling is better than ever. Awal bulan ni, I just purchased a PPV called Wrestlemania 28 adn watched it live fopr the first time in my life. It was worth that RM 19.99 that I paid. Satu moment yang sangat special. I also watched it with my dad, which makes it even more special. Satu special blog post akan dibuat for that, itu janji.

- Thinking about doing his masters, tapi rasanya lama lagi. Nak kumpul duit and ada kehidupan yang stabil dulu. Kadang-kadang teringin nak challenge myself to do it. Then again, dah lima tahun memerah otak. Tiba masanya untuk otak tu berehat sekejap dari academic things and more to life things, like work, personal stuffs and much more.

- 2012 is the year of politics in Malaysia. And I for once, am intrigued with it. Sebagai seorang yang atas pagar, it will be fun to see each side's stand (BN and PR) and their arguments on why they should be the one who lead our country. Aku hanya nak hidup dalam negara yang aman, damai, tiada (atau kurang) racism, harmoni dan dikelilingi media that does not always churn out political bs (maintstream media or not). Enough with all of these crazy accusations, personal attacks and whatnot. Bak kata pepatah, "a politician thinks of the next election, while a statesman thinks of the next generation."

- Been playing a lot of games lately, thanks to my PSP yang sangat portable dan memudahkan diri ini untuk bermain dari pagi sampai ke malam. It is fun getting in touch to that side of me, a gamer yang susah nak menyerah kalah dan akan habiskan game tu walau dengan apa cara sekalipun.

- So many good movies coming out. Akan cuba sedaya upaya untuk menonton all that I targeted, especially Dark Knight Rises. Itu memang wajib tonton and I will be mad at myself if I am not able to catch it when it coems out. That and of course The Hobbit too.

Well, I think that is just about it from me. Ringan sikit otak dan dada selepas meluahkan banyak perkara. More to come from me, that is for sure.

Au revoire.

Aku dan lagu (part 10)

10.19 a.m 12.11.2011

Adele - Someone like you

I heard
That you're settled down
That you
Found a girl
And your
Married now

I heard
That your dreams came true
I guess she gave you things
I didn't give to you

Oh friend
Why you so shy
Ain't like you to hold back
Or hide from the light

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away I couldn't fight it
I hoped you'd see my face and be reminded
That for me
It isn't over

Nevermind
I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best
For you too
Don't forget me
I beg
I'll remember you still
Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead
Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead
Yeah

You know how the time flies
Only yesterday
It was the time of our lives
We were born and bred
In a summer haze
Bound by the surprise
Of our glory days

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away I couldn't fight it
I hoped you'd see my face and be reminded
That for me
It isn't over

Nevermind
I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best
For you too
Don't forget me
I beg
I'll remember you still
Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead

Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes
And memories made
Who would have known
How bittersweet
This would taste

Nevermind
I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best
For you too
Don't forget me
I beg
I'll remember you still
Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead

Nevermind
I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best
For you too
Don't forget me
I beg
I'll remember you still
Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead

Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead

This is one amazing woman. Watch her here.

It has been one month. Satu bulan sudahpun berlalu since that fateful day. And I am healing, slowly but surely. Walaupun dalam tempoh sebulan ni I was in some state of mind yang mana theme songs adalah ini dan ini, but I went through it and have a different perspective now.

Hidup harus diteruskan, no matter what. Tak perlu lagi nak berfikir tentang that thing lagi. It was the best period of my life though, and akan dijadikan pengajaran untuk masa hadapan. walaupun begitu, this guilt feeling masih ada for making her graduation day a sour one. I had no intention to make it that way. Cuma aku rasa lebih baik aku ketepi and let her have her day. Let her bask in the glory yang dah tiga tahun dia usahakan dan akhirnya dapat dikecapi. And it happened in a vice versa way, which is resulting in a really guilty me. But that's just me I guess, really bad with women around me.

I wish her all the best though. Mungkin aku hanya salah satu perhentiannya in her quest to find herself. Satu pitstop dalam mencari pengalaman. I hope she achieves her dream and meet the right guy, because she absolutely deserved it. She will always be in the annals of my heart though, as someone who touched me deep inside. Semoga dia berjaya.

It is time to move forward. Alhamdulillah, I had a career change. Swapping dari memasak popcorn, menjaga stok barang ke membaca artikel, mendengar dan melihat berita. A new job di kaki bukit KL Tower, menjadi seorang media researcher. And by the looks of it I am going for a long haul for this one. Dah tiba masanya untuk merencana masa hadapan, walaupun tanpa seseorang yang istimewa di sisi. That's my fate I guess,to be alone sebab tiada pemegang tulang rusuknya di atas bumi ini. Or she already existed tapi diri ini tak nampak.

All in all, masih panjang lagi perjalanan ini sebenarnya, jika diizinkan Tuhan. I do have matlamat untuk dicapai. Aku berharap yang semua matlamat itu dapat dicapai sebelum diri ini menutup mata untuk selama-lamanya, menghadap Tuhan yang Maha Esa.

Notakecil:

- Gigih mengumpul duit so that I can live by myself in the near future. Tak mahu lagi membebankan keluarga. It is time for me to give back.

- Nak melanjutkan pelajaran dan mengambil Masters, but not now though. Nak menikmati hidup bekerja pula after years of studying. PJJ perhaps?

- Banyak perancangan but I need to do it one thing at a time. Patience is key.

- Having weekends back is the best thing yang dialami sekarang.

It was a good ride...

7.59 a.m 7.10.2011

3.1.2011 - 7.10.2011. It was a good ride though dari awal sampai ke akhirnya. And semuanya akan menjadi sesuatu yang akan dikenang sampai bila-bila. I guess that she's not into that commitment part of a relationship and wants to fly high into the sky tanpa ada yang mengepit sayapnya. Lalu aku biarkan sahaja dia terbang because she deserves it more. I'm just another chapter in her life and vice versa. And she deserves to live her life to the fullest until she finally founds who she really is in this world (even though perkara itu membuatkan aku falling even more for her).

Tapi chapter ini akan terpahat in my mind because for once, I felt some genuine love towards someone and I do believe that it was real. However, hujan pula yang datang mencurah-curah di waktu tengahari perjalanan ini. And I know it was my mistake for absolutely believing in all of this all along. The real fool in all of this is me. But I'll take it because I deserve it. It pays to be selfless and loyal. Tapi aku terima semua sebab that's just me and it is impossible to change it. Aku tak akan revert back to be my old ways and will always be selfless and loyal.

To her, Miss Razorblade;

"Thank you for at least giving me a glimpse of what relationship is all about. I am so sorry if I was such an annoyance to you all this while. You have been the best thing that happened to me this year and I will never ever forget that. Your surprises will be kept as those were truly special and gave me some sort of motivation and direction in my life pada masa yang dulu. Also, that thing on my finger akan selalu dipakai sampai saya tutup mata sebab tempat awak takkan berubah dalam hati ini, bersebelahan dengan famili saya. Semoga awak dapat terbang tinggi dan mencapai segalanya yang awak dream selama ini. One more thing, be that wonder woman that you always be. Looking forward to read your final product bila dah siap nanti."

Au revoire, for now. (kalau ada jodoh tak ke mana, kan ?)

p.s: bak kata seseorang, "Next time, just go gung-ho and pinang terus!"

Notakecil:

- Graduation month and I am not really looking forward to it. Maybe just celebrating it with my family only as I do not want to ruin my friend's celebration due to me being not into it. It will be so awkward with her being there. Or I can just skip altogether ? We'll see how it goes.

-Also, diri ini akan cuba mengelak dari family gatherings sebab tak mahu menjawab soalan 5W 1H yang pastinya akan keluar daripada kaum kerabat about that end-of-the-year thing.

- Work has been good, tapi bila motivasi dan matlamat dah tiada, perhaps a change is needed. I'm willing to take that risk. Last resort perhaps kembali ke akar umbi dan menjadi pendidik bangsa when February 2012 comes.

- WWE is trying to rekindle some of its "Attitude Era" magic. Not really working in my eyes but I do look forward to what will happen next.

- Being completely out of touch with the happenings in sports really hurts. Sedang mncuba kembali mengikutinya perlahan-lahan.

- RIP Steve Jobs, pengasas Apple Inc. dan antara visionairies terhebat in this lifetime. Tanpa dia, takkan ada Ipod, Iphone dan sebagainya.

- Masih lagi menjadi seorang yang stingy dan sukar untk mengeluarkan duit. Bekalan untuk masa depan yang memang tidak menentu.

- On the other hand, PSP-3000 is damn tempting to me.

.commitment.trust.respect.patience.

11.24 a.m. 1.10.2011

Satu lagi entri menjengah ke laman blog yang tak seberapa ini. Again, being too busy with work and life at the outside of the house menghindarkan aku daripada meluahkan buah fikiran yang banyak bersarang in my head right now. Namun, I need to start blogging back seriously now. Need to brush up my writing skills. More on that dalam entri yang akan datang (itu satu janji!). This time though, I want to share something that I learnt during this course of my life. Mungkin semua dah tahu yang aku sedang berada di dalam satu relationship yang serius with my other half. It's a long distance one too, considering the fact yang dia akan berada jauh di negeri kelahirannya and I am here, in this metropolis known as Kuala Lumpur. It has been 3 months since we started and I learn several things that are essential in maintaining a relationship with the one girl that I love the most. And through constant obervation of other people's relationships that is happening in my world, it is safe to say bahawa perkara-perkara ini amat essential dalam mengukuhkan perhubungan antara si Adam dan si Hawa.

Commitment.

In a relationship, one has to be committed untuk memastikan yang ianya berpanjangan sehinggalah ke akhirnya. Dah tak pandang ke arah yang lain. In my case, I made a promise that I will stick with her for a very, very long time. Walaupun ada distraction di kiri dan kanan, si dia masih yang pertama in my eyes. Tetapi tak perlu sampai terlebih komited, sebab masih ada lagi benda lain di dalam dunia ini yang harus dicapai. Personal goals, among others juga harus diambil kira. Komitmen bukannya bererti that we are tied up to him or her, it is just a pledge that no matter what, the relationship will still be intact and strong untuk satu jangka masa yang sangat, sangat lama. It is still a long way to go for me, but I know yang komitmen aku adalah pada tahap yang tinggi. Hopefully she does, too.

Trust.

Most of the times, trust is a huge issue in a relationship. Kepercayaan kepada your other half adalah seuatu yang sukar untuk dipupuk, apatah lagi di zaman kini, whereby thanks to social networks and such, one can easily know what his or her other half are doing at that particular time. For me, once you are committed, you need to trust your partner. Percaya yang si dia juga, sama seperti diri kamu, tidak akan membuat sesuatu that could jeopardize a relationship. I had friends that have doubts tentang perhubungan mereka, kerana mereka tidak berapa nak percaya dengan pasangan mereka. That actually means that they are not committed enough, or maybe their partners are'nt trustworthy enough, or other factors that menyebabkan berlakunya ketidakpercayaan itu. Senang cerita, kena ada kepercayaan, as the song by Ungu says, 'Percaya Padaku'.

Respect.

Hormat adalah satu lagi perkara yang sangat penting in a relationship, for me at least. Respect each other's life. Jangan terlalu mengongkong and says what you want him or her to be. Let him or her be what he or she wants to be. Sebab that was the first reason why anda berada in a relationship. Personality attracts. I still very much respect my other half dan support everything that she does. And aku tak akan cuba mengongkong dia because she is that perfect just the way she is right now. Di samping itu, respect juga bermakna yang one has to respect privasi pasangan masing-masing. It is just not about you and your partner dalam kehidupan dia atas dunia ini. Let him or her be and live their lives the way they want to, melainkan kalau ianya sesuatu yang bertentangan dengan undang-undang dunia dan undang-undang agama. Itu adalah treshold untuk tahap respect itu.

Patience.

I think this is the most important thing. One has to be very patient with his or her partner. Kena banyak bersabar sebab it is a continuing learning process in knowing each other. Frankly speaking, banyak juga perkara dan karenah yang dilalui oleh aku sepanjang bersama dengan dia. And I have to bersabar sebab masih dalam proses belajar, memahami dan mengetahui isi hatinya yang sebenar. And it gets deeper as time goes on. Patience juga perlu dalam menghadapi sesuatu situasi bersama, terutama jika seseorang itu dalam long distance relationship. Hati mana yang tak envy dengan pasangan yang selalu dapat bersama. But I know that the time will come whereby I will be with her for a long time. Just need to patient about it.

Kesemua faktor ini sebenarnya interconnected with each other. If one is committed, one will have a lot of trust and respect towards his or her loved one and also have a lot of patience in an ongoing relationship. At least that is what I can sum up. Mungkin teori ini sangat salah, sangat betul ataupun ada salah serta betul. One thing for sure though, I truly hope that this relationship that I have right now, will be as long as what my dad and my late mum had. Sampai arwah mak menutup mata buat kali terakhir. That is my hope.

Au Revoire, for now peeps !

A thing or two... (and more)

9.32 a.m 12.8.2011

Nak buat style bullet points a-la Notakecil. Just to tell some things of my chest.

- Dah masuk 12 hari dah umat Islam di Malaysia berpuasa. This is the first time yang mana aku berpuasa sebagai seorang pekerja. Dulu, masa jadi student dah biasa busy masa puasa, so it was not that hard for me to adjust my body to not eat during the days. Lagipun lebih jimat. Nak kumpul duit. And this could be my first Ramadhan where I pay for my own zakat, Insya Allah.

- Talking about work,it has been pretty good. Tak pernah lagi aku berasa sedikit animosity towards my work, although tiring at times. Kerja kena ikhlas, kalau tak rezeki tu tak berkat. Although if there's no more career advancement for me in this field, I might want to switch to some other work by the end of this year, Insya Allah.

- Speaking of the end of this year, aku masih belum dalam preparation mode untuk benda baik yang bakal berlaku kelak, although my other half dah dalam mode sebegitu. But for sure, aku sedang mengumpul the necessary budget for it. Still searching for that courage to tell my dad about it. Once abah telah diberitahu, baru aku khabarkan kepada Muntik Team pada raya nanti. Hopefully it will turn out to be a pleasant surprise for them. I know there's some sort of problem setiap kali raya menjelang at the Muntik Team's household (I'm not deaf nor blind), tetapi I truly hope that this thing that I am going to do would somehow make all of them feel some joy during the Raya period.

- Untuk Raya tahun ni, maybe aku hanya membeli sepasang baju Melayu sahaja, and that's just about it. No T-shirts, pants or any other items. Cuma satu pasang Baju Melayu sahaja, and that's through my paycheck. Perhaps shopping at the last minute? Murah sikit. Again, nak kumpul duit.

- WWE is in its best right now bagi aku. Certainly looking forward to the Summerslam PPV this coming Isnin (will be one very sad cat if I don't get an off day on that day). Cena vs Punk II. Satu storyline yang penuh intrigue thanks to their great promo work. Aku akan berpuas hati jika match antara mereka nanti is on par atau lebih hebat daripada match mereka di Money in The Bank bulan lepas.

- Musim BPL akan bermula lagi. My team, Manchester United (penyandang kejuaraan BPL musim lepas) nampaknya akan bermula dari bawah semula dengan injection pemain-pemain muda yang dipanggil semula dari loan spells (Cleverley, Wellbeck) serta acquisition baru (De Gea, Phil Jones). Dengan saingan hebat daripada kelab-kelab lain, aku berharap this season, the Red Devils akan terus mara ke hadapan, taking on the spirit of 1999 with them. GGMU!

- Last but not least, kepada that other half of my heart:

"It has been 2 months and 1 day since this journey started. And it will continue for a very very long time, God Willing. Just like what you said to me, "have faith, don't stress. good luck! ♥"

"If it's love,
And we decide that it's forever,
No one else could do it better,
If it's love,
And we're two birds of a feather,
Then the rest is just whenever"

- If It's Love by Train

Until then, Au Revoir.

Aku dan Lagu (Part 9)

12.54 p.m 3.8.2011

The Strokes - Razorblade

Oh, the, Razor blade, that's what I call love
I bet you pick it up and mess around with it
If I put it down
It gets extremely complicated
Anything to forget everything

You got to take me out
At least once a week
Whether I'm in your arms
Or I'm at your feet
I know exactly what you're thinking
You won't say it now
But in your heart it's loud

Oh no, my feelings are more important than yours
Oh, drop dead, I don't care, I won't worry
There you go

Oh, the razor blade
Wish it would snap this rope
The world is in your hand
Or it's at your throat
At times it's not that complicated
Anything to forget everything

He would never talk
But he was not shy
She was a street-smart girl
But she could not lie
They were perfect for each other
Say it now
Cause in your heart it's loud

Oh no, my feelings are more important than yours
Oh, drop dead, I don't care, I won't worry

Ayh

Sweetheart
Your feelings are more important of course
Of course
Everyone you wanted
Everything that we would take from them
I don't wanna know, I don't wanna know
Tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me

no, don't, okay

their performance of this song = http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LHXlIcn33A4

The Strokes is definitely antara band 'rock n roll' kegemaran aku sepanjang zaman. They compliment each other in true perfection. Baik dari vokal, guitars, bass dan dram, it all seems perfectly aligned dalam setiap lagu mereka. That's why I put them among my favorites, alongside Slipknot and others. Kenapa aku memilih lagu ni?

Well, dah genap 100 hari aku bersama dengan kesayangan. And throughout those days it has been really special indeed for me. I felt that a part of me telah menjadi complete, dan membuatkan aku lebih bermotivasi untuk meneruskan penghidupan di dunia ni. She has to be the one for me. That's why aku berusaha gigih sekarang, so that I can have some sort of ikatan dengan kesayangan, and then moving on towards having a more serious ikatan dengannya. Mungkin lama lagi untuk itu, but at least aku ada some sort of foundation to build upon. And hopefully it will last for hundreds and hundreds of days more.

to her:

"thank you for all the surprises. thank you for accepting me as i am. thank you for being the best thing that happened to me this year. and thank you for completing that one piece of puzzle in this little heart of mine."

as the song says,

"He would never talk
But he was not shy
She was a street-smart girl
But she could not lie
They were perfect for each other
Say it now
Cause in your heart it's loud."

until then, Au Revoir.

All about working life...

11.04 p.m 28.7.2011

It has been a long time, isn't it? Dah lama tangan ni tak menaip di keyboard 'Toshi' yakni laptop kepunyaan diri berkenaan entry in this particular blog. Have no fear, due to some stimulus (and perhaps sarcasm), diri ini akan sekali lagi cuba untuk aktif menulis (or menaip) di blog ini dan blog yang lagi satu tu. Tentang blog yang lagi satu tu, akan diberitahu kemudian.

2011 is really a year of transition for me. Dari bidang pembelajaran, terus ke bidang pekerjaan. The first four months diharungi dengan mengharungi practical training di RTM. It was probably the best four months that I ever had in terms of having fun in doing what I like the most, a broadcaster. Menjadi trainee AP untuk Hello on Two was really fun indeed, as I learn more tentang luar dan dalam bidang penyiaran and got a good understanding of how media works as a whole in Malaysia.

Selepas itu, after a brief break aku terjun semula ke bidang pekerjaan, but this time into a whole new different environment, field and work. Aku bekerja di bahagian Concessions wayang MBO di Viva Mall. Bermula hanya sebagai part timer, the workload is damn heavy and dengan hanya berpeluang bercuti satu hari dalam seminggu, one would want to quit the job altogether. Tapi aku bertahan, mengenangkan masa depan yang nak dicapai, among others. Plus, I am a workaholic after all.

Akhirnya, that perseverance pays off as now I am working full time here. Dan aku terasa committed untuk meneruskan karier aku di bidang wayang nie. Seems to be pretty interesting, tapi penuh onak dan ranjau berduri. At least sekarang aku ada platform untuk maju ke hadapan.

Comparing it with my first job is like night and day. The first job is like love at first sight. The second job is like someone that you fall in love slowly but surely as days go by. In the end, I choose the second one as it can last much more longer than the first one. Don't get me wrong, broadcasting masih lagi passion aku. And I would jump into any opportunity that presents itself in regards to broadcasting.

Cuma sekarang aku kena kumpul duit. Nak buat benda baik hujung tahun ni Insya Allah. Aku harap semuanya cukup, diterima oleh keluarga dan diberkati oleh Allah S.W.T. Doakanlah agar perancangan ini berjalan dengan lancar.

Until then, Au Revoire !

About her again... as my future... :)

9.56 a.m. 14.6.2011

Well, here I am again with another entry in this little blog of mine. Termasuk hari ni sudah genap 43 hari diri ini berstatus penganggur. Bukannya tiada effort to change this status, but maybe rezeki tak datang lagi. I just have to usaha and tawakal. Insya Allah, adalah rezeki untuk bekerja nanti. Perhaps, I have to wait until the final result to come out (which is by the way will be out this Friday, damn!) and refine my flaws first, before I am ready for the real world out there. Now, I am acting as the Mr. Mama in my house, which means that aku perlu melaksanakan tugasan harian di rumah seperti membasuh baju dan sebgainya. That is not a bad thing, as I improved myself day by day doing these chores. Persiapan masa hadapan mungkin? Aku hanya mampu tersenyum at that thought. Speaking of future, I just want to say Alhamdulillah. Finally, I have found that future Mrs. Fairus.

Remember the girl that I mentioned in the previous entry? Well, it turned out for the better as she actually has the same feeling that I have towards her. All it takes is one date and I knew that this is the girl that I have been searching for all my life. The other half of me, the partner in life and the mate of this little soul here. Yes, aku akui there have been a little bit doubt in this heart regarding her, but after that date, I just knew that this is THE girl for me. It may seems rushed but I never had this kind of feeling that is so much stronger than the previous girls in my life (the high-school crush, girl at summer camp, miss independent and miss one-in-a-million).

There are many reasons why I absolutely love about her. She has two sides, one that is very strong and independent, and another one that is very pure, sincere and lovable. And I can see her as my other half in the future, the big sister kepada adik-adikku, menantu abahku and a great addition to the Muntik Team. Both of us have a plan towards that and I am hoping that Insya Allah, semuanya berjalan lancar mengikut rancangan and me and her can achieve that happy ending. So, I better start picking up on my side, get a job, improving myself as a person and to be better that what I was yesterday. Nak jaga anak dara orang la katakan.

By the way, when I think of her, I have two songs in my mind, Falling In by Lifehouse and LOVE Girl by CN Blue.

Until next time, au revoire !

Notakecil (dah lama dah tak buat ni):

- Musim bola dah habis. But that doesn't mean that the off-season is boring. Transfer news and international competition (Gold Cup and Copa America) will satisfy my appetite for football.

- Current WWE programming is in its lowest of lows. Only several things that excites. Through Internet, I have at least three sites where I surf to that offers me some sort of retribution to this passion of mine.

- Sekarang kembali mendalami dunia fotografi yang dah lama ditinggalkan. But I need new camera lens. :/

- I wanna have a playlist of songs about her. Baru ada dua lagu.

- Malaysian politics are down to choosing a bisexual leader and a queen-controlled leader. That's why I don't really pay attention to it.

- Game emulators (Genesis, GBA, N64) made my day. Teringat kenangan zaman dulu.

- To those who read this on Facebook, this is actually from my Eyeless blog (tiadamata.blogspot.com). Feel free to check it out !

Something about her..

10.24 a.m 9.5.2011

Alhamdulillah, after a torrid work hangover of a week, diri ini kembali menjadi waras semula and I am back to being myself again. A pursuer of dreams and a wannabee somebody. Dengan tamatnya degree, maka bermulalah journey aku to the unknown. Welcome to the harsh and cold real world, Fairus! Anyways, entry kali ni is a dedication towards a girl that I have known recently and can be consdered as a conqueror of this little heart of mine (damn, he is falling in again!). A girl that at first, aku tak sangka akan kenal, malahan rapat. But then again, that four letter word, FATE is again at play. And now, this guy is into her. Entri terdahulu, I have said a few words about her. Thankfully, the thing that she said was a total misunderstanding on my part. Dan sekarang, at least aku ada peluang to prove to her that I can be her man (damn I love this 'Chase' portion of relationship).

That four month period telah banyak membuka mataku terhadap si dia. Such a strong-willed girl, yet deep inside lies a very feminine and fragile heart. Walaupun begitu, I still do not know her fully yet. But, day after day, the pieces to her puzzles are starting to unravel, one by one. And learning something new about her day after day is something that I cherish. And vice versa, she learns a lot about me as well. I've never been as open as this terhadap seorang perempuan. Tetapi itu penting sebenarnya, as a boy needs to know about his girl, and a girl needs to know about his boy. Then, barulah persefahaman dapat dibina. It is more interesting this way as it feels like an adventure to the unknown. You never know what you're gonna get. It is really exciting indeed.

Hopefully, by the end of it all, I can ultimately be hers. Hopefully she does have the same feeling as I have towards her. Ingin sekali aku mahu menjadi 'kesayangan' si dia itu, dan juga the first to be introduced to her mother. Ah, you are thinking ahead of yourself again, Fairus. Get your head focused !

One step at a time, slow and steady.

I just don't want to be that damn silly guy again.

Au Revoir, for now.

Best Buddy material...

6.20 a.m 5.5.2011

Finally satu entry yang true untuk tahun 2011. Keadaan semasa yang sedikit reda akhirnya membantu for me to write another piece of my mind. Practical training was hard and fun, but that will be written for another day. This time, ianya adalah satu luahan perasaan yg mendalam after a very tough night that I have endured.

*rant begins*

Once again, diri ini telah menjadi subject untuk menjadi hanya best buddy a.k.a good friend a.k.a best friend kepada opposite sex and tidak mampu menjadi lebih daripada itu. Maybe it is just me who is not good enough to be more than a friend. Lately, I've been the subject for them to talk about problems with their men. That is pretty pathetic jika dikenangkan yang aku hanya menjadi tempat mengadu dan merujuk tentang permasalahan lelaki. And aku, as a typical me, just listen and try to give an honest opinion yang mungkin mampu merungkai permasalahan tu, walaupun I haven't been in a serious relationship for the longest of time. Again, typical me of helping people out. In the end, diri ni juga yang akan terasa sakitnya sebab tak mampu untuk menjadi seorang lover kepada perempuan.

For the past six months I've been let down by women twice, due to the fact that they accept me as a best buddy a.k.a good friend a.k.a best friend only, and tidak lebih daripada itu. That pretty much sucks. Especially the second one after all the hope in the world that I have towards her actually becoming that special girl of mine. And now she is the only one in this particular person's mind and heart. Perhaps pekara ini tak boleh nak rush sangat. One step at a time. Perhaps juga I have to be on 'chasing' mode again. Start from the beginning again. Tetapi, mungkin pengakhirannya akan sama sahaja. Pengakhiran yang sangat tidak digemari ketika ini.

Perhaps the Foreveralone club will have its newest member: me.

*rant ends*

Lega sedikit selepas sesi luahan tadi. Now I am feeling a lot better. Who says that blogging is not good for your mental health. It helps tremendously.

Au revoir, mon ami.

Notakecil:

- To-do list to get her: Play kites, watch sunset, go up Broga Hill, watch the new Transformer movie. Gonna get this done to win her heart. There will be an entry especially dedicated to her. :)

- After Friday, yours truly akan secara rasminya bertukar status dari seorang pelajar kepada seorang penganggur.

- The uncertain future is certainly getting on my nerves.

- Hating the state of WWE landscape right now. It degrades a lot after so much hope last year.

Alhamdulillah~~

from miss independent to miss one in a million~~

to miss independent + one in a million~~

I'm just happy~~

that's all~~

=)

A Special Dedication...

10.18 a.m 6.11.2010

Kembali lagi aku ke laman ini after several weeks. Well, the time has finally come. Like the old saying goes, when there is a beginning, there will always be an end. The end, has finally come for this particular chapter of my life. Berakhir sudah pembelajaran Broadcasting Degree selepas 3 semester, walaupun technically it is not over because there is still another semester of practical training. Tapi, bagi aku it does not matter because dengan tamatnya semester 5 ini, maka tamatlah sudah perjuangan dengan study, exams, assignments, test dan perkara-perkara seumpamanya. No more bus rides to class, no more menumpang kereta member (thanks Rudi !) to go back home, and no more sleepless night of finishing assignments and studying for the upcoming test or exams. But come to think about it, benda yang pastinya paling aku rindu out of all these experiences adalah having fun times with my classmates. These bunch of people yang selalu made my day everytime ada kelas. That precious memories with them will always be in my remembrance for the rest of my existence in this world.

Di sini, I just wanna say thank you. Thank you for being classmates yang sangat cool, calm, collective, kelakar, fun, dedicated, beautiful, handsome, penh toleransi, baik hati and macam-macam lagi perkataan yang boleh dikaitkan dengan perkara positif that could not come out from my brain at this moment. Thank you for helping me throughout 3 semester kita bersama. Mengharungi all of those shits and f-ed up things, juga enjoying all the funny, memorable and best moments sepanjang masa kita sebagai satu kelas yang sama. Walaupun most of us baru kenal masa degree and several of us dah kenal since diploma, yang penting kita dah tahu each other so well after this 1 and a half years if studying. Aku harap bond nie akan kekal for a very long time, Insya Allah.

Ery = lepas nie dah tak jumpe dah n tanya pasal esaimen~~
Fary = muke nmpak je garang tapi kelakar owh~~
Cino = seorang yang crazy sebenarnya and always happy~~
Una = selalu bertanya especially masa nak exam, tapi that helps me as well. TQ Una~~
Aleya = Member sejak diploma lagi tapi masa degree nie baru nak kenal2 lebih sedikit~~ walaupun nampak diam tapi gila-gila jugak~~
Nik = oh lepas nie dah tak naik kereta Kelisa tue and dengar Nik kecek Klate~~
Belle = mesti rindu dgn suara 'happy' Belle yang sama happy macam orangnya~~
Fatin = Kak Long ! Dah tak dapat tengok Fatin jadi 'gila-gila'sikit dalam kelas and stress pasal kena bahan dengan Ijat~~
Tun = selalu buat lawak spontan kat dalam kelas, dah takde dah~~
Noyu = lepas nie dah takda dah tgk Noyu duduk depan2 dengar lecture and selalu happy dalam kelas~~ Kim Hyun Joong di hati !
Raiha = suka tengok Raiha yang gigih buat kerja~~ nak aje jadi gigih macam tue~~
Nora = Kakak ! Thanks sangat2 koz jadi 'kakak' yang baik~~ selalu ingatkan pasal keje and stuffs~~ and sama-sama buat assignment selalu~~ lepas nie dah tak selalu tgk Nora 'crack' lagi~~
Lea = Adik ! Lepas nie mesti rindu membahan dan dibahan oleh Lea~~ Thanks for being such a supportive and caring friend of mine~~
Cinta = Cin, maaf lah if ada terbuat benda-benda yang tak kelakar bagi you selama nie~~ You have been such a nice friend to me and I will always cherish this friendship that we have~~
Mar = Cantik ! Lepas nie dah tak tgk Mar kat kelas lagi and tanya pasal assignments and all~~ Tapi dah tau dah kat mana rumah Mar kat Putrajaya~~
Teah = ala lepas nie dah tak tunggu kat bus stand nak balik seksyen 7 lagi~~ and jarang2 jadi fellow active fesbuk member yang sejati~~
Yue = Yue ok kan ? Lepas nie jangan sakit-sakit lagi and jadilah pembaca berita paling besh luar sana~~
Anep = bonceng motor Anep nak pegi fac jumpa mama dah tak buat lagi~~ lepak rumah aku pun dah tak berkesempatan lagi~~ seorang bro yang sangat cool !
Rudi = Rudi the genius and yet lazy guy ! Thanks sebab selalu bagi tumpang kereta ke mana-mana especially to balik ke rumah~~ and also I wanna say thanks for being a damn good work partner all of this time~~
Ijat = MPP penuh dedikasi ! Lepas nie dah tak dengar Ijat selalu kecoh dalam kelas dari mula sampai habis~~ Semoga sukses selalu di dalam apa jua yang anda ceburi~~
Fizo = Sejak diploma lagi menjadi kawan yang sangat2 baik kepada aku~~ Tak tahulah macam mana nak balas jasa baik dan budi Fizo selama ini~~ Cuma Allah sahaja yang mampu membalasnya~~ Lagi satu tone down sedikit panas baran tue~~ Takut aku !
Dino = Cool classmate yang selalu sahaja relax dalam kelas~~ Lepas nie dah tak ada lagi study group dengan Dino lagi~~

Akhir kata, as the class rep of this group, aku ingin memohon sejuta kemaafan if aku ada terkasar bahasa, tersinggung perasaan and buat korang panas dengan aku sepanjang being the class rep this semester. Nobody's perfect and I am no perfect person too. Kalau ada kata-kata and perbuatan aku yang menyusahkan korang and benda-benda seumpamanya, sekali lagi sejuta kemaafan yang aku pohon. Hopefully lepas nie kita semua still in contact especially through Fesbuking, and berjumpa di dunia luar sana time kerja. It is a small world after all.

For one last time you guys~~

GOOD LUCK, GOODBYE AND SEE YOU ALL AGAIN PEEPS !!

Group Mass Comm 23B 09/11

A transition of feelings...

Out goes miss independent..

In comes miss one in a million..

My life so far in the second half of 2010 (Heaven turned hell)

8.44 a.m 18.10.2010

Yes, kembali lagi aku ke laman ini to say a few words here and there about what I have been up to since the last time that I wrote here. Kali terakhir aku di sini adalah ketika meramalkan pemenang Piala Dunia. Spain winning aside and after enduring 3/4 of the semester, all I can say is that this semester is like heaven turned into hell.

Mengapa aku berkata sebegitu? Awal semester memang heaven. Dengan hanya satu kelas sehari except on Wednesday, terlalu banyak masa terluang. And I spent it with my close peeps, outing and such. Then, the hell gradualy comes into this guy's life. Sikap acuh tak acuh terhadap assignments and too much relaxin has cost him at least the weekends after the Raya break. Sampai sekarang still tak balik lagi disebabkan kerja yang melambak.

As I was typing this, there's still 15(!) things to do before aku boleh menamatkan semester ini, including Final Tests and Exams. Bilangan itu mmg agak ridiculous especially ketika sedang study week ni. Guess not so much of a study week eh? Anyhow I just say that this semester has its own challenges and I do believe that I can overcome it. Believe in oneself, in people you trust, and in Allah are the best way to go.

Ok, nak pergi berbasikal la pulak. Kalau jadilah.

Au revoir.

Notakecil:

-Next semester dah ke alam pekerjaan. By the looks of it, it is going to be a pain in the ass.

-Then again, this is what I want to do for all my life. Better take it or leave it.

-Peeps that do care about me and peeps that only take advantages of me. Tell me which side do I want to give a damn first?

-Maybe aku ni baik sangat kot. I do believe that if you do good, you get good. So, tak kisah la if anyone wants to use me. Itu hal mereka dengan Tuhan. That is all I want to say.

-Yes, I do feel that I am in love again. Then again, it is to f-in late to do anything about it. :(

-Because I know that she is going places and just like in the past, I am just a sore excuse for a lover. :(

-Then again, she will always come to my mind. Missing her so f-in badly again. Masalahnya bila teringat assignments I will remember her. The only girl that actually has the same brainwave as me. Oh Miss Independent, how I still missing you !

-WWE in PG sucks big time. There are only a few and far between in terms of bright spots. Oh how I miss the Attitude Era.

-An avid follower of the K-POP scene, a casual follower of the international music scene and a seldom follower of the local music scene.

Hanya satu teguran~~

Peh..

Dah lama sgt aku tidak menulis di sini..

Sibuk dan leti menjalani kehidupan seharian sebagai seorang pelajar Universiti..

Namun akan ada coretan di sini..

Because this is where things started for me..

Luahan isi hati yg dalam dan menikam~~

A geeky TV junkie’s life

25.5.2010 7.06 p.m

Dalam beberapa hari lagi, bulan 5 akan menutup tirai and hello the month of June. Signaling that there is not much time left for me to spend on doing what I love the most, sitting in front of the television and watching interesting programs that Astro has to offer through the available channels. Menonton TV memang dah jadi satu lumrah bagi aku. It is also one of the main reasons for me to pursue my studies in broadcasting. It is because there are so many interesting programs that you can do or cover. It is up to one’s creativity to do it. Sepanjang cuti ni, I got the opportunity to watch several shows that I like and follows it. Ketika semester lalu, I did not get the chance to do it, so this semester break is the only period of time that I can use untuk melihatnya.

Ada beberapa rancangan di TV that caught my eyes in certain channels yang aku sering ikuti. I am a huge follower of the Learning Channels at Astro, which are Discovery Channels, National Geographic and in certain channels yang aku sering ikuti. I am a huge follower of the Learning Channels at Astro, which are Discovery Channels, National Geographic and in certain channels yang aku sering ikuti. I am a huge follower of the Learning Channels at Astro, in particular Discovery Channel, National Geographic and the History Channel. It satisfied the inner geek in me and also kerana rancangan-rancangan yang ada sangat menarik dan ada entertainment value. I always watch documentaries or shows that gain my interest, but there are several shows that I watched a lot simply because they are awesome show dari segala aspek produksi. Some of the shows that I frequently watch on these channels are:

a) Mythbusters

Hands down, the best show that combines science and entertainment perfectly at the same time. It aired daily on the Discovery Channel. Objektif rancangan ini sangat simple, menguji myths yang ada dalam kehidupan seharian kita secara saintifik. With colorful characters such as Jamie, Adam, Tori, Grant and Kari, it adds the entertainment factor to the show. I just look forward to every episode of this show because it will showcase myths that will be tested with sometimes surprising result in store and also the humour provided by the casts.

b) Ghost Lab

It is a new show on the Discovery Channel but it is rated very high in my book. Ia banyak berkaitan dari segi aktiviti paranormal. Namun, what makes it unique is that they approach the paranormal phenomenon in a very scientific way. Tiada unsur-unsur merepek atau meraban yang digunapakai. Instead, they use science thoroughly. Each episode, mereka akan menguji satu teori berkaitan dengan alam paranormal and put it up to the test. Aku memang seorang yang gemar dengan subjek sebegini and the whole concept of the show really intrigue and excite me. Selain itu, benda-benda ghaib yang ada dalam rancangan ni memang betul. Naik meremang bulu roma juga la bila tengok cerita ni.

c) Swords: Life on the Line

Satu lagi show baru from Discovery Channel. It simply tells the story and journey of several people who literally put their life on the line swordfishing at the Grand Banks yang terletak di perairang Utara Atlantik. I sangat terkenal kerana it is one of the most treacherous waters on this planet. Melihatkan perit jerih mereka menangkap ikan untuk menampung kehidupan mereka is an inspiring thing to watch. It also reminds me that men can go to such lengths and depths in doing such extraordinary things.

Selain daripada shows di atas, I also watch several specials on these channels. What makes me want to watch it is because these shows have evolved from the old days of boring documentaries with boring commentaries to a much more engaging products yang memenuhi taste viewers and also open their eyes to a lot of things in this amazing world that they live in. Aku ingin sekali produce products or shows seumpama ini because banyak benda yang boleh ditonjolkan yang ada dalam negara ni. Cuma the way it supposed to be showed should be more creative and appeal to the masses, bukan sekadar syok sendiri sahaja.

Au Revoir for now.

Aku dan FIFA World Cup...

20.5.2010 8.56 a.m

Dalam lebih kurang 20 lebih hari lagi, the most famous sports competition ever on the face of this earth, FIFA World Cup akan berlangsung buat pertama kalinya di bumi Afrika. Satu occasion yang hanya berlaku empat tahun sekali dan sesunguhnya, amat dinantikan khususnya bagi football enthusiasts seperti aku. Bagi aku, it is the ultimate football competition disebabkan sejarahnya yang sangat menarik serta football greats yang memahat nama mereka dalam pertandingan ini. Di sepanjang 22 tahun kehidupan aku atas planet ini, I had experienced 4 World Cups (Italia 90 tidak dikira because baru berusia 2 tahun at that time). Setiap World Cup itu memberi pengalaman unik yang tersendiri bagi aku.

a) World Cup USA 1994

World Cup yang berlangsung di satu-satunya tempat atas Bumi ni yang tak berapa nak appreciate sangat sukan yang satu ni. Mereka lebih embrace sukan-sukan buatan mereka sendiri seperti American Football dan Basketball. Masa ni aku was 6 years old. Tak banyak yang aku ingat tapi I do know that the football was in the morning most of the time. Bapa aku sering melihat the football matches yang ada ketika World Cup berlangsung. Aku masih ingat jadual competition yang ditampal di ruang tamu dan bapa will always update the scores on that schedule. Oh ya, schedule tu berlatarbelakangkan Carlos Valderrama kalau tak silap, pemain berambut gerbang dari Colombia. Anotehr memory yang aku ingat dari World Cup ni was the Final and saat Roberto Baggio gagal menjaringkan penalty masa penalty shootout, thus handing the World Cup to the Brazillians.

b) World Cup France 1998

Kembali ke Eropah, pertandingan ini diadakan di negara yang kaya dengan sejarah bola sepak iaitu France. Masa ia diadakan, I was in Year 4, so pengetahuan bola tu masih lagi sedkit cetek tetapi dah terbuka untuk tahu tentang certain teams sepert Brazil, England Holland dan France. Aku masih ingat masa opening match which was at late night here in Malaysia. Hanya aku seorang sahaja yang berjaga melihat perlawanan tu. One of the more vivid memories that I remembered was England’s run that ended abruptly thanks to Argentina, Paraguay and Mexico’s impressive runs and also shocks by the Croatian. The final was a letdown bagi aku kerana team Brazil yang aku support lost to the host nation and Ronaldo was no where at that time.

c) World Cup South Korea/Japan 2002

World Cup yang pertama kali dilangsungkan di bumi yang aku pijak, iaitu bumi Asia. Satu-satunya WorldCup yang boleh dianggap fleksibel dari segi timing sebab matches banyak berlangsung eiterb waktu petang, Maghrib atau prime time malam. Sangat sesuai bagi aku yang berada di Tingkatan 2 waktu tu. For me, this was the best World Cup because there were so many shocks and surprises by the smaller nations against the powerhouse nations in football. Aku amat menyukainya kerana it broke the status quo. I was fully behind Brazil at this time. Aku juga behind every underdog nations juga, most notably South Korea because of its unbelievable rum to the semi finals. Ini membuktikan that Asians juga mampu berdiri sama tinggi dan duduk sama rendah dengan other nations in football. Aku masih ingat diri ini that was so excited in every Korean matches and became ecstatic whenever they pull a shocker seperti saat Pak Ji Sung scored ketika menentang Portugal, Ahn Jung Hwan’s header against Italy, and the penalty save against Spain. The final menyaksikan team yang aku support, Brazil akhirnya berjaya by beating Germany thanks to two goals by Ronaldo.

d) World Cup Germany 2006

The World Cup was back to a nation that has a significant history of winning it. Ia dilangsungkan di tanah Bavaria yang penuh dengan sejarah bola sepak yang sangat significant terhadap perkembangan bola sepak seluruh dunia. This was the first World Cup yang aku ikuti dengan lebih serius dan analytical disebabkan ia berlangsung after I finished my high school and just before aku memasuki alam university. Not the most memorable World Cup bagi aku kerana tak banyak shocks yang berlaku dan many favorite nations performed agak teruk in this competition. Brazil dan England was a huge letdown. World Cup ini juga kurang menarik disebabkan defensive approach yang banyak dibuat oleh nearly all nations. Maka, it wasn’t surprising seeing Italy lifting the Cup. The final match aku dapat lihat di UiTM Melaka, right after berakhirnya Minggu Orientasi yang sangat hell-like at that time. First live football match yang aku lihat bersama warga di sana.

Itulah memori aku apabila berkaitan dengan World Cup. Tahun ni, aku amat berharap agar the World Cup would be something that is very memorable because we need something like that to be cherished. Life without surprise would be boring. Walaupun aku predict Brazil akan memenanginya, tetapi aku berharap other nations yang tidak diberi peluang langsung mampu melakukan sesuatu yang shocking. Go Argentina!

Au revoir.

Notakecil:

- Akhirnya aku decide to go back home and do what I do best, just rest, rest and more rest. This thing does not suit me at all. Just to stressful of a life to live.

- Planning to recover as much as I can the content of my lost external hard disk one thing at a time, although most of it will remain lost forever.

- Is starting to realize that he is falling in L again.

- Agak merindui content K-POP yang hilang.

The day I lost nearly 200+gb of memories in my life...

17.5.2010 9.11 p.m.

My psychiatrist says that it is best to express your sadness rather that to hold it on to yourself. Well, this is the expression of that sadness and most of it involves the huge lost of sweet memories of my life. That unfortunate incident happened on 15th of May 2010.

That was he day that will forever remain in the realm of my memories as one of THE WORST days of my life. The day I lost my freakin external hard drive. Perkara yang sangat menyakitkan dan melukakan hati yang amat sangat. Aku sangat frustrated kerana it was my fault and my fault only. Bukan salah orang lain ataupun faktor-faktor luaran yang mendorong kepada kehilangan ini. api bila difikirkan balik, maybe it is fated and like my late mum always said, ada hikmah di sebalik setiap kejadian itu.

But still, aku still amat terkilan kerana ada banyak sangat files and folders dalam hard disk tu yang aku amat2 cherish and sangat terasa kehilangannya. Some of the folders are (I had to express it, kalu tak it will haunt me):

1.Fireuz4125's Pictures

For me, the most important folder yang aku ada. Containing semua work aku with my D40 cameras, all the pictures during school days, diploma days and even degree days, all family events that I had covered, and my wallpaper collections. It is really depressing because I know that it is impossible to recover it in one way or another.

2. Fireuz4125's Music

All of my music collections that I had collected since 2006, gone just like that. As a music lover, it is very sad indeed disebabkan banyak lagu-lagu yang susah nak dicari dah tiada dalam posession. Yang paling terkilan of course my complete Slipknot and Linkin Park discographies, as well as selected albums yang aku gemar. The JukeBox collections of nearly 1000+ songs are also gone.

3. Fireuz4125's Video

Another folder containing lots and lots of videos that I had collected since 2006. From movies to music videos to Korean programs, semua hilang. It is sad because I had put so much hours in collecting all of this stuffs. Not to forget all of my video projects from diploma and degree, including the freakin talk show. Damn, that really is a sad thing for sure.

Kalau nak cerita, memang ada banyak lagi folder dalam hard disk tu yang aku nak ceritakan, but I think these three folders is the most significant ones because it contains memories of my past, present and perhaps future. Thank god I have enough amount of courage to overcome this huge letdown. Perhaps it is best to fill that empty memories with new and refreshing ones. Here's hopin for it to come true.

Au Revoir, mon ami. ;)

Notakecil:

- Contemplating of cutting short of his work trip because of all of this f-ed up mess. A friend's quote, "Chill lah" really came to my mind.

- Embracing the use of emoticons because it is the most simple way to express one's feelings.

- The World Cup beckons and here's hoping for a footballing miracle or two.

- WWE programming looks to be as solid as ever this year. More of that in the coming entries.

- Maybe just his feelings but maybe, just maybe that he is struck by the cupid again.

- I am starting to fulfill my own pledge of a blog entry per day, to make up to all of the days that gone by without one during the earlier parts of this year.

2010 so far.. (3 bulan dan 22 hari yang memenatkan)..

9.35 p.m 22.4.2010

Wow.. akhir bulan 4 baru ada entri terbaru di blog ni. It has been a freakin long time since I write something in this blog of mine. Satu bukti yang menunjukkan bahawa 2010 adalah satu tahun yang sangat mengharukan bagi aku in so many ways. Sukar untuk dipercayai but this first four months has been an absolutely rollercoaster ride from start up until now. So many things that happened. Susah nak cerita satu-satu but I will try my best.

Sudah pastinya antara perkara besar yang berlaku was my continuation in the pursuit of getting my freakin degree in broadcasting. To tell you the truth, semester ke 4 yang dilalui has been an absolutely ride from educational hell. Bayangkan apabila terpaksa juggle 9 subjek (28 credits to boot pulak tu), each with it own tough assignments and such. Kadang-kadang aku terfikir yang my brain was splitted into 9 different parts. Nevertheless, teringat kata-kata arwah mak to just get on with every obstacle in life. Kata-kata yang menjadi pegangan aku sekarang.

The subjects pun bukan calang-calang dia punya degree of difficulty. Assignments kept coming like bullets each week. From big projects to written assignments, semuanya terpaksa dihadapi dengan penuh ketabahan and semangat cekal to succeed. But I like it. Especially the talk show assigment for TV production subject. That was a very meaningful project sebab it involves broadcasting and something yang memang menjadi minat aku. Shout for the prodcution crews a.k.a group mates yang menjadikan ia satu realiti yang best. Definitely an experience that I will never forget.

The Rock Show bebeh!!

Another big thing was perpindahan aku from rumah sewa di apartment dekat Klang (technically it is in Klang) to a house near Seksyen 7. Duduk bersama dengan senior2 Mass Comm, satu experience yang benar2 aku cherish. Walaupun sangat jarang berkomunikasi dengan mereka (out of respect sebab mereka pun sibuk and furthermore, aku pun sibuk), but they are cool people. Totally respect them 100%. Thank god, tiada masalah pengangkutan this semester sebab rumah pun dekat dengan UiTM. So, bas RapidKL menjadi peneman di kala waktu pergi dan balik. Tapi often juga la pulang dari kelas via tumpang kereta classmates. Kalau still duduk rumah dulu, jangan harap nak dapat ride la.

This semester juga, I have gain many real friends yang benar2 memahami aku as a person that I am. They are my classmates yang rapat and also can be called good friends. Cinta, Nora, Lea, Rudi and Fizo. Totally cool bunch of people that I have a pleasure in working with. Kalu nak compared dengan 'The Five' memang susah la because each groups memang aku suka in being part of. Nonetheless, aku sangat bersyukur to have them as great friends this semester.

Me, Nora, Lea, Cinta

Rudi, Guy Interviewed for assignments, Me

Rudi - The semester before I admit that aku sangat intimidated by him because he is such a brilliant and talented guy. This semester, that feeling changed and aku become close to him (NOT in a gay manner). Talk a lot about life, football and many more. And he is a damn good multi-tasker and editor.

Nora - Merangkap 'kakak' aku di sini. Sangat meticulous and cautious pasal work. Committed with work at the same time. Menjadi tempat rujukan aku di kala terlupa pasal assignments. Sangat kelakar and a very good friend. A damn good production assistant.

Lea - Merangkap 'adik' aku di sini. Damn I was so wrong with my perception of her masa zaman diploma dulu. A very fun person actually and friendly as well. Sangat best dalam designing and stuff.

Cinta - One of the more cooler person that I have as a friend. Suka usik dia at all times. Mempunyai memori yang sangat kuat sebenarnya. Tempat rujukan kalau aku ada terlupa something yang impotant. So comfortable with her. That is all I can say.

Fizo - (Sorry bro tiada gambar yang decent untuk dipaparkan) Kepala dia agak gila2, but at the same time antara yang paling serius, committed dan focus dalam kerja. Selalu minta tolong when it comes to assignments, tapi aku tak kisah because deep down, he is one of the nicest guy around.

This semester juga, aku try to reassess my situation regarding my love life. Tahap kesibukan yang melampau membuatkan aku tak berapa concentrate sangat pasal benda ni. I am moving on from my past and try to embrace the new. Maybe cuti semester ni aku akan betul2 reassess my situation and try to make a move perhaps? Seeing cousins bekahwin and ada anak2 yang cute membuatkan aku sangat envy and felt the pressure. Tapi kalau dah jodoh tak ke mana kan?

Well, that's it for this entry. Praying that the next time I'll write will be sooner rather than very late later.

Au revoir, mon ami. (Advance sedikit sebab dah 2 semester belajar French)

Notakecil:

- Damn dah lama sangat tak tengok movies. Try to settle watching those in my external first. Can't wait to watch Nightmare on Elms Street.

- Missing my PS2 so much. Akan melepaskan rindu sepanjang cuti semester ni.

- Then again, this cuti semester will ultimately decide upon the course of my life. Praying for the best Insya Allah.

- It has been a very LONG time since I watch WWE. Taking a hiatus because I will never watch current WWE programming until I watch Wrestlemania 26.

- Mungkinkah I am having the same feeing that I have before? Time will tell.

- World Cup fever is on. I will be supporting England, Brazil and the underdogs. Go England!

(Bola Sepak) Perihal Tiga Generasi Peminat Bola Sepak

10.17 p.m. 14.12.2009

Alhamdulillah. Ketika entri ini ditulis, Malaysia baru sahaja layak beraksi di Final bola sepak Sukan SEA, beating the home team, Laos with 3 goals to 1. For the first time in 8 years, Malaysia has the chance to fight for the football gold. Kali terakhir was back in 2001, ketika KL menjadi tuan rumah sukan serantau ni. I was cautious at first tetapi apabila melihat kesungguhan pemain-pemain kebangsaan, aku rasa agak optimis yang Malaysia mampu mengakhiri kemarau 20 tahun tanpa emas dari sukan bola sepak.

But that wasn’t my main point of this entry. What I would like to share adalah semangat passionate terhadap bola sepak yang tersemat dalam keluarga aku. The best part about the match that I mentioned earlier was I watched it alongside my grandfather. He is a huge football fan. Tak kiralah kalau dapat tengok bola sepak peringkat manapun, from peringkat antara kampung, sampailah ke BPL, he would follow the match with huge interest, walaupun he is well into his 80’s now. Tadi pun, aku alongside atuk was in full support of the national team. The weird thing is that the last time this happened was back in 2001, during the same leg of the competition featuring Malaysia. Guess that things can happen twice in a lifetime after all.

Bila bercerita tentang pasukan kegemaran, selain Malaysia, atuk aku gemar melihat pasukan Arsenal. This is because they always pass the ball around, something that my grandfather said to be the most essential and the right way to play football. Hurts me a bit, considering the fact that I’m a Red Devil at heart. Mujurla di kampung ada Astro, so tetiap hujung minggu memang atuk aku layan bola BPL, if berkesempatan.

My dad also likes football, although not as passionate as my grandfather. My dad minat bola on an average level only. But still he watches football with me sometimes, if only the match itself is entertaining. Pak Long aku agak passionate tentang bola. Zaman dia dulu boleh dikatakan he was one of the most fierced player in the Muar district. Sayangnya, he chose to be a police instead of being a football player. Pasukan kegemarannya is Chelsea and favorite striker is of course, Didier Drogba.

Di kalangan generasi aku pula, nearly all of my male cousins are into football. And the range of football team yang disokong varies dari Johor FC sampaila ke Barcelona. Memang kalau ada big game masa berkmpul ramai-ramai di kampung, semua will be glued to the TV set watching the game. Joy of victory, pain of defeat, all kinds of emotion will be experienced once you watch a football match at the Basiron household alongside the Basiron clan.

Penat pula tangan ni menaip. Until next time.

Au Revoir.